{"id":209,"date":"2008-05-08T00:00:00","date_gmt":"2008-05-08T06:00:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/blog.keloland.com\/lund\/2008\/05\/08\/im-sorry-mom-and-thanks-again\/"},"modified":"2023-07-20T21:00:18","modified_gmt":"2023-07-20T21:00:18","slug":"im-sorry-mom-and-thanks-again","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.jodystaples.com\/main\/im-sorry-mom-and-thanks-again\/","title":{"rendered":"I&#8217;m Sorry Mom..and Thanks Again"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>&quot;Geeze, it sure would be nice if we could hear how we sounded,&quot; my cousin said after a 1961 practice session at our house.&nbsp;With our electric guitars cranked high, we&#8217;d&nbsp;spend hours trying to figure out the right chords and correct Everly Brothers harmony for the latest rock and roll hit songs.<br \/>\n&quot;I hear Larsen&#8217;s Music in Lake Preston has a tape recorder for a hundred bucks,&quot; Grouse said.&nbsp;&nbsp;&quot;Oh, man that would be great, let&#8217;s see if we can get it,&quot; I replied.&quot;It&#8217;s not going to be &quot;we,&quot; said Grouse, I&#8217;m still making payments on my Fender guitar that I bought from Larsen..a guitar that &quot;you&quot; wound up playing more than me.&quot;&quot;Alright, I&#8217;ll ask mom if she&#8217;ll co-sign for the thing,&quot; I said.&nbsp;It turned out to be a typical whining beg fest, but mom finally gave in on my promise that I would make the payments.. not having a clue as to where I&#8217;d get the money. It turned out to be one of many promises I would fail to deliver on in my youth.<br \/>\nI just came across the receipt for that tape recorder while going through some old boxes the other day.<br \/>\nRECEIVED OF GLADYS LUND..$10.00 FINAL PAYMENT. PAID IN FULL, LARSEN&#8217;S MUSIC.<br \/>\nI&#8217;d like to say that tape recorder was a big help in establishing a major foothold in our rise to&nbsp;rock and roll stardom&nbsp; but, in fact, we used it mainly for clowning around.&nbsp;We&#8217;d invite friends over and record reel after reel of&nbsp;silly voices, fart sounds and&nbsp;uncontrolled laughter&nbsp;but very little of us rehearsing.&nbsp;On one tape&nbsp;you can actually hear me yelling something unkind to my mom in the other room..the same mother who&nbsp;scrimped and saved so I could have that stupid machine in the first place.&nbsp;I know..it&#8217;s not uncommon for 15 year old boys to say and do regrettable things to their moms but I&nbsp;wish there was a way to let her know just how sorry I am for being such an unappreciative teenage jerk.&nbsp;I must have felt a little bad for not always treating her with the respect&nbsp;she deserved.&nbsp;In that same box&nbsp; I found&nbsp;this note&nbsp;I&#8217;d written to her (probably in Sunday School) around&nbsp; the same time.That rather generic note reminded me of a wonderful poem by Billy Collins that says it much better.<br \/>\nThe LanyardBilly CollinsThe other day I was ricocheting slowlyoff the blue walls of this room,moving as if underwater from typewriter to piano,from bookshelf to an envelope lying on the floor,when I found myself in the L section of the dictionarywhere my eyes fell upon the word lanyard.<br \/>\nNo cookie nibbled by a French novelistcould send one into the past more suddenly&mdash;a past where I sat at a workbench at a campby a deep Adirondack lakelearning how to braid long thin plastic stripsinto a lanyard, a gift for my mother.<br \/>\nI had never seen anyone use a lanyardor wear one, if that&rsquo;s what you did with them,but that did not keep me from crossingstrand over strand again and againuntil I had made a boxyred and white lanyard for my mother.<br \/>\nShe gave me life and milk from her breasts,and I gave her a lanyard.She nursed me in many a sick room,lifted spoons of medicine to my lips,laid cold face-cloths on my forehead,and then led me out into the airy light<br \/>\nand taught me to walk and swim,and I, in turn, presented her with a lanyard.Here are thousands of meals, she said,and here is clothing and a good education.And here is your lanyard, I replied,which I made with a little help from a counselor.<br \/>\nHere is a breathing body and a beating heart,strong legs, bones and teeth,and two clear eyes to read the world, she whispered,and here, I said, is the lanyard I made at camp.And here, I wish to say to her now,is a smaller gift&mdash;not the worn truth<br \/>\nthat you can never repay your mother,but the rueful admission that when she tookthe two-tone lanyard from my hand,I was as sure as a boy could bethat this useless, worthless thing I woveout of boredom would be enough to make us even.Happy Mother&#8217;s Day!<br \/>\nIf you&#8217;d like to see and hear Billy Collins reading The Lanyard, click here.*A footnote: Be sure and check out Hemmingsen&#8217;s Friday blog&nbsp;on what would have been his mom&#8217;s 99th. birthday. It&#8217;s a tremendous tribute to her and&nbsp;a rare glimpse into Steve&#8217;s family.&nbsp; <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>&quot;Geeze, it sure would be nice if we could hear how we sounded,&quot; my cousin said after a 1961 practice session at our house.&nbsp;With our electric guitars cranked high, we&#8217;d&nbsp;spend hours trying to figure out the right chords and correct Everly Brothers harmony for the latest rock and roll hit songs. &quot;I hear Larsen&#8217;s Music&hellip;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[60],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-209","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-lund-at-large","category-60","description-off"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.jodystaples.com\/main\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/209","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.jodystaples.com\/main\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.jodystaples.com\/main\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.jodystaples.com\/main\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.jodystaples.com\/main\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=209"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.jodystaples.com\/main\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/209\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":12102,"href":"https:\/\/www.jodystaples.com\/main\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/209\/revisions\/12102"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.jodystaples.com\/main\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=209"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.jodystaples.com\/main\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=209"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.jodystaples.com\/main\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=209"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}